General Elections 2011

The GE are currently going on and today is supposedly the "cooling off day" where citizens are given a day off from rallies to think over their vote.
The past week there have been rallies by the many parties in Singapore all over the island.

The rally at Hougang Stadium probably got the most of my attention seeing it is so near to school, that the special operations police were stationed early in school in an event of a riot. It even got the whole upper serangoon road jam that it was all over twitter that everyone had to wait a good 30-45 mins for a bus home. We have work to do you know!!

However from the past month or so, I have never seen Singapore from such a perspective in my life.
They do say that once you start discussing about politics with your friends, you are growing up. Much less in a jc where it is an extremely commonly discussed topic. The nation just seemed chaotic and the future does seem bleak to a certain extent.
Various parties at rallies telling people the policies that they can offer to them and how they can make our future better.
But to be honest we all know how long it takes for change to actually happen and if it does happen won't it have its limitations and the need for more solutions which could possibly be a non-benefit to the nation. How can we set a guarantee that this change will be of good. Yet, we all know that what we currently have could possibly be something of that could be a negative notion for our future. These questions that seem so uncertain of that we as Singaporeans truly have to ask ourselves what we hope the future of Singapore to be like.

Thankfully, I need not have to vote this time round. However my time will have to come when I turn of age.
And it is then will I have to consider what I would like to see in my future and the benefits that I'm able to have access to and the progression the government has taken from the last GE.

It such a depressing sight to come to see Singaporeans lashing out at one another be it parties/individuals on their wrongdoings and negative things in the light of politics. It just shows the lack of a gracious society. At the end of it, it just shows how the government has been trying to build the idea of "One people, One nation, One Singapore" to be an ideal, cause no matter what, there will be 2 sides to the story. This clearly reflecting the idea of "Ideal vs Reality" in terms of the nation's "togetherness". A very contradictory word to be used for such a time.

Daisy Tan

If you follow me on twitter, you might have recently known that I tweeted that the SR netball team recently participated in the 2011 Daisy Tan Carnival. Being in this field for so long, Daisy Tan has been a well known carnival that many come to play at at the various category. We took part in the tertiary category that day and emerge as champions!! My first gold after playing netball for so long! So sick of being fourth kay! But the feeling that day was just tense tiring and awesome. The games we played against the various schools really tested the strengths of our minds and gave us an idea of how we fared at the competition level. Well, although we saw SAJC playing opens instead, it definitely got us all on a good start working towards A'Div. The hardwork we all have been putting in the last year was totally worth it. Now our final goal: A'Div top 4.

Shan

I met shan for our annual meet up on one of the last few days of 2010.

It eventually led to dinner with her family and a sleepover.

This girl is like my lifelong friend whom I know I will know for the rest of my life.

We had such great time shopping and catching up with one another on our lives.

I always look back and reflect the times we spent together when we were kids.

We were awkward and didn't really fit in with other girls as well.

We quarreled, laughed, joked,sleep, BATHED(when we were kids kay!), played and enjoyed each other's presence together.

As we grew up, my heart was always thankful that we have each other.

After so many years as friends, I look forward to our future as being friends forever:)

Dad

Totally slipped my mind!

Happy father's day!!

Fearless

So this week marks the end of Camp Fearless. Being in the camp comm and all really has been a great joy and pleasure to serve.
The camp itself was really so much more than I expected. The campers were really on the ball as well as the camp comm. This really has been a stepping stone for zone 6 ever since we first started out. We really have been through much together and I have to say it has been awesome. Camp Fearless really brought together everyone and I guess we have proven the unity and togetherness we share is so much more than just friends but like Pastor Jiancong said, a family.

More than that, God moved big.
Went all out and wrestle with Him.
It was mind blowing. period.

After this, What's next?

The good the bad the weird

2009.

This year has been a roller coaster ride for me if I could describe it.
But I am glad I pulled through all the shit and crap I had to go through.
There were so many times I just felt like throwing the towel in but in the end I'm glad I didn't.
Sometimes as I think back to this whole year, somehow I am thankful for all of it, the good, the bad and the weird.
Because of it all it just shows His faithfulness and how through the seasons He has always been there.
Something so precious, so eternal that I am thankful for His agape love.

Through the year, I have my close friends to thank for just being there despite your own lives. People like Liz, Wendy, Janice, Joy.
This year I also got closer to some people like Charissa, Joanne Ng and Joanne Nathan as well. Which have been such a joy to me.
The change of cell half way down the year really was a major turning point for me, being away from Liz after so long. But I am thankful for it as it was time that I stand on my own ground.

Of course my girlies, ZY, Deb, Janelle, Jomanda and the team. It's my last year in this school and really glad that this 4 years we have memories together:) I love you guys always....

And of course my bestiesssss, E has been really busy during the last few months but we met alot through out the year. Am so glad to have you by my side whenever needed and me by your side when you needed it. May it be during the shit or losing your precious hp at T1. I love you loads:))))) My other bestie, TWS. I've known you all my life and am glad after our busy sec sch life, we got to meet much often this year. You have always been a great companion my whole life and I enjoyed talking about our childish ways:) This is to many more years of friendship. I love you:)))

So this is my last post of the year and things could not end better but with my family.
Although my dad is in HK now and mummy is on her way there. I thank everything that has happen the last year. And I love you guys loads.

Auntie Suripah

7 years is a really long time that I never knew past so fast.
She was more than just a helper but someone I considered to be close with even compared to some of my friends.
I chose not to go to the airport as I know I will probably burst into tears.
But I just want to say thank you for being in my life.

Sidetrack of my life so far

Hearing two different things is a problem.
You want to trust both but then you will be contradicting yourself.
On the outside everything seems fine and happy but beneath lies a pack of lies.
Then you ask yourself, what's wrong with these people.
And again, what's wrong with the whole world.

Sometimes ignorance is a bliss.

Run

I just came back from a great run.
The air was moist and the drizzle was cool.
The scary part is still the express way where it's so dark I'm scared I will get kidnapped.
Last night's night out for Jo was great since we hardly get to do it the past few weeks.
It was a nice change to have someone else take the pictures since I'm always doing it with my lousy camera.
Hence, no pictures since all of them look gross due to my lousy camera.

I'm thinking of getting a new one, but it will have to come out of my own pocket.
I really love the Leica M8 and the new Olympus Pen digital.

Cell today was good and different. I'm still trying to adjust and all. After all, I have been with liz ever since the beginning.
However, I know that change is the only thing constant and that God has so much more instore for me.
Therefore I am glad for this change and believe that we will multiply again,
As I was running just now, I thought about everything with God. Then somehow, I heard it.
I really did:)

Last words

So, the last post you see me talking bout my last week of holiday's weekend.
Being out the whole sat with the cell was great before the change.
Baptism, captain's ball, bbq.
I even got my first massage after the games and my goodness, my back nearly killed me.
After which I went back for fun laughter and of course JOY.

The next morning was the tough part.
Even as I write this now, I'm still having mixed thoughts and feelings.
One thing for sure I miss him alot.
It was the day that I have been picturing in my mind for months now.
He shook hands with everyone but added a special one for mine.
In my heart I knew what it meant and was reminded of the past when I used to sent him off.
The image of his back walking in and waving at us still is vivid.
No matter how much hurt I had from him, he will always hold a special place in my heart.

Rise up

Thank you for the cross, Lord.
Thank you for the price You paid.
Bearing all my sin and shame,
In love You came
And gave amazing grace.

Thank you for this love, Lord.
Thank you for the nail pierced hands.
Washed me in Your cleansing flow,
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace.

For he rose again on this day and brought hope

Life so far.

Secondary 4 has been robbing the life out of me.
Datelines to meet, work to do, never-ending assignments, and there is even suppose to be a CME project.
First paper in 2-3 months time. Freaking out.
Netball too.

East zone is done and we came in 4th.
It's quite sickening to get 4th again as we lost to st.hildas yet again.
We even got 4th for the netops carnival and they got 3rd. Fyi, our score difference then was by 1/2.
But the game that day at the stadium was disappointing. Everyone needed a moment to reflect.
Nationals will be up next commencing on the first week of term 2.

Honestly I am glad that we managed to get this far.
My goal in mind initially was to get into east zone top 4. And I am satisfied.

Our sch's annual cheer competition and cross country was today.
4/7 really put in great effort and I think I did myself proud for cross country.
I manage to squeeze out a medal despite the horrible stitch in my tummy.
I officially have a new favourite food.
It is the really very good durian pancakes from emicakes.
Simply the best.

Anyway, i just want to thank those who one way another showed support even if you didn't know
The usual crowd. You know who you are. Somehow being nervous together made me stay calm and run all the way.

Dapahne. For your water when I immediately finished my run.

The juniors. For cheering us on.

Siqi. It really was a pity that you could not get a medal as you were just right behind me. Thanks for your wishes.

Darren Eng. Testing me a maths question in the middle of watching cheer, keeping my personal belongings and bringing the groundsheet, super wonderful of you.

Guifang. Practically my life saver as I totally just sat there with my number card tired from it all. thanks for like registering my name when i nearly died. haha

Though some of you might not read this but really thanks, somehow, you guys just made my day even more special.


PTM tomorrow -.-

sometimes we just need to get back to that freefall
help me get back there
back to where there is no holding back.

V-day

Well, you can call it my day or whatsoever, but valentines day was a little different for me this year.
To start of, maybe I have mentioned this before but I think that only on such a day to express you love is so shallow.
What about the rest of the days. Does it mean they can't be special as well?
Good thing I'm in a cell that thinks like that as well.
You don't buy for me, I don't buy for you, we both save money. haha

This year I spent the morning in church like last year.
Afterwards, my day was spent at the hospital.
Honestly, this year could be one of my most meaningful v-day's as it felt like a love that was not cliche or over-rated but something really deep from my heart was really given.
Am really glad that i get to spend it this way, supporting liz during her time of need.

I would not want to have it another way

If you saw it, good for you

I decided to remove the previous post.
Not that I think any of it was fake, but I realise it will do no one good.
If only he was still around.
Tomorrow's the big day.

Bye 2008, Hello 2009

2008 has been a ride for me going through so many things.
But I am glad that I managed to snap out of it and survive 2008.
It has been tough and 2009 might even be worse.
But I guess I did learn something that was to trust again in God.
To allow that free fall which I always found so hard.

Part of me is excited of 2009 but afraid.
New year, new things, new experiences and new challenges.
I hate new stuff sometimes, unless I hate the old of course.
Obviously it's my o'level year and my time to rise up.
So, I've got the jitters for it.

So, instead of looking at 2008, why not set some things I hope to accomplish for 2009.

1. Actually study.
Must tell myself that I love to study and need to since its o'level year.

2. Be happy.
Lots of unhappy things have happened in 2008 which made me feel crappy.
So need to tell myself to worry so much and stay calm and be happy.

3. Run.
Guess both spiritually and physically is what I want.
Obviously to train for cross country this year since didn't get much chance last year due to my injury. And also, the cell have
been talking about doing a marathon, so maybe 10Km?
And also to run nearer to God. To draw nearer is what I desire.


Well, school starts on monday for me hooray.
Am going to finish my homework between these 2 days. I just finish my chmistry!
Cut my hair later, and hopefully, get a new bag which I desperately need.


OH!!!
And here is something to look forward to,
My birthday is exactly in 3 months from today!

Matthew 6:33

Sometimes in life we have choices to make.
You might make the right one or the wrong one.
You might need to choose the one that you know is right despite it not being your choice.

Yes, my studies are important but then I do not want a repeat of this year.
No longer do I want to strive to do things on my own strength but just live on his joy alone.
Knowing that I do not have to strive is something I knew for a very long time but I guess only through trials where you realise you have to let go and do a free fall.
Just as I was fretting over this issue about my studies, I guess God just spoke to me through today's message.

But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Matthew 6:33

I am glad with the decision I made in the end.
Cause it is what I wanted and what God wanted.
All I want is just to linger in his presence, to worship my God and serve my king:)
Thanks LIZ for your guidance:)

Thinking back

2007:last day of school

It's amazing how fast one school year passes by, before we know it, we will be saying aurevoir.
Back then things seem so real, so true but I knew that a day like this would come.
I so saw it coming.
That what we used to have seems like it vanished into thin air.
Everyone slowly has different priorities, different desires, different goals.
That maybe sometimes some may feel the other to be more important.
Owells

Irritated to the max!!!

I am seriously irritated now. My day has been so irritating to the max!
I want my space to not be shared. I do not want to listen to all you people have to say.
I just want to be left alone.
I want things to be back the way they were.
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cupcake:)







This is what i call a group shot.

Do not bother asking me to send pictures, as I feel that all these are shots of my own.
Don't bother to grab the pictures unless you intend to credit me.
As you can see, I am still irritated.

Thanks Deb!

Just wanna say that I'm grateful for your words last night and i have no idea what I was thinking there and then.
If i didn't call you, i might have went crazy and start freaking out and not sleep the whole night.
Thanks Deb, for being there and letting me be there for you during your times.

Happy Birthday:)

Pissed off!

The stupid looking girl next to me didn't go to school today.
Ha! a day of peace! just joking:)
This picture was taken some time back at a study session.
Apparantly she didn't study at all but spent her time camwhoring and sleeping.
But then cause she does not do her homework. Sad case.

Don't think just because you can just step in and take over our lives ad think that you are actually part of it. You so have to do more than that than to just order us around. You actually need to gain our respect before we will listen.
Drilling us will not work

Training today was one word.
Starts with a S followed by a H than a vowel I lastly an alphabet T